Her THREE bundle of joy in Year 2010

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2012-03-08T17:19:00.002+08:00

everyday not enough sleep ah!!
was suppose to work on feb, went for interview, went for training and in the end i give the job a miss.
meimei went into high fever on my training day, hubby in reservist.
my helper don't know how to bring her to see a doctor also.
no choice, i didn't went for further training.
her fever up and down for 6days until i buay tahan cos she's too cranky, awake every 1 hr?
aiyo...
den decide not to go for that job already.
one thing also because i'm not very keen with the job.
oh, did i mention that i've already stop breastfeeding?
and can you imagine, i stopped breastfeeding and i gain 2kg within 2 weeks!
WTFFfff...
i'm alrdy SO FAT and nv lose weight through breastfeeding liao, still gain weight.
OMFG.
some more, i can't eat pills cos of the side effect and my anemia.
Arghhh...

didi started his pre-nursery school last tuesday.
it was a whole disasters, he bang the door, bang on the window.
cry extremely loud.
today, there's slight improvement!
he cried less than 30mins and he start to join his friends to play, sing songs and blah blah...

now looking for job.
i cant wait to go back to work, so i can clear all his credit card debts.
if our debts clear, we will have $1000 'spare' every month!!!
i wish....
i really wish that we can own our own car man!!

18/2/2012

2012-02-18T02:06:00.001+08:00

Many of my friends are pregnant now.
Either with their 2nd one or 3rd one already.
Oh my...
And I thought Chinese won't want to have more than 2 kids.
So see, Chinese also help to grow population in Singapore ok?
Don't always think we Chinese not helping lor.
Zzz...

The thought of pregnancy, labour, confinement, waking up hourly, all this makes me having love-hate feelings.
And NO, don't get me wrong.
I'm not pregnant!!
And don't intend to!!!
I used to think that I dont mind having another one if Kena 'accident' again.
But now, I'm pretty firm with it, NO MORE!!!
I'm stopping at 3, even though so many ppl say I'm still young and blah blah...
I'm firm and will do all precaution in order not to prevent any 'accident'.
I don't want to restart my life again.
I've already started job hunt and also stopped breastfeeding last week.
My helper complaining about she can't handle 3 kids and if I were to pregnant again, I think she will run away!
If she run away, I don't think I can find any helper who is willing to look after 4 young kids lor...
I'm also thinking to go for multimedia course.
But I need to work first in order to save money up and go for course.
Please please, let me get the job I want and my expected salary pleaseeeee!

I hate the no-money feelings!!
Yesterday, intend to buy some clothings for Kyrene and Didi at gmarket.
But who knows, my bank only left $11, not enough to buy.
And the sales ended yesterday also.
The feeling totally sucks!!!
Sucks to the max!!!
So I want to go work!!!!

But once I go work, who is gonna help Kyrene with her school work?
Who is gonna bring her to kids read program every Friday afternoon?
Sigh...

16/2/2012

2012-02-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

i've not been blogging much and i believe, there's no more readers out there.
Phew!
sometimes, i've so much want to say, yet i'm not willing to share on my facebook.

hubby went on reservist since last friday and i've been handling the kids alone at night.
hubby used to be the one handling meimei eversince she turns 1year old?
as i started with job search, went on severals interview yet still turns out nothing.
sigh.
sometimes, i feel so pek cek that some companies just called me for interview for the sake of calling.
they maybe have no intention to hire me, just want to shows that there's more people applying this job.
really waste of my time!!
after several times of this kind of experience, i start to hate to go for interview.
sian!

anyway, last sunday, went on a movie with my 3rd sister and youngest brother for the first time!
the feeling is totally different when you go out on a date with husband.
i enjoy it!
and my sister even treat me on the movie and popcorn set.
woooo...
instead of me treating them, she treat me instead as im not working.
hahaha!
first time, i felt that our siblings love is so close! :))

this year ain't a good year for me again.
my health didn't improve and sometimes seems to get worst.
there's a time when i was in wet market with kids, i nearly fainted on the spot.
luckily someone helped me and bring me to clinic.
went back to the clinic for a few times and took 3 times of blood test.
thank god, i didn't have thalassemia but extremely low in redblood cell and iron.
generally, a human should at the rate of 12, and a lady should at the healthy rate of 11.
while mine, are at the rate of 5.
have to take iron pills long term and will have to go back clinic again to re-take my blood test to see any improvement.
if no improvement, i may need blood transmission to my body.
sigh...
but i will hold on as long as i can, for the sake of my kids.

My 3 disaster !

2012-02-10T17:21:00.001+08:00

Ever since, we not able to borrow the car often, we seldom go out Liao.
Bringing 3 kids take public transport really can drive me crazy.
Kyrene and Didi always refuse to listen to me, play with the bus bell.
Meimei keep shouting wanting to come down from the seat.
A total disaster which makes me wanna go home straight!!!

But, they are still my baobei.
The ones that I'm willing to sacrify my life for them :)

My three bundle

2012-01-15T11:26:00.001+08:00

Been searching for jobs and sending resume.
I know life gonna get tough once I start work.
After work still got to look after kids until they are all asleep then I can sleep then next morning got to wake up early go work again.
Everyday Hoping for T.G.I.F!
LOL!!
I wanna work!!
I wanna earn money!!

Happy birthday Bravier boy!

2012-01-10T23:40:00.001+08:00

You're finally 3!
Towards you, mummy always feel so guilty for neglecting you.
Because of your Jiejie having fever all the time and with fits, I put in too much attention to her.
When you're only 9months old, mummy pregnant with Meimei.
From that on, you seems to know about Meimei presence and refuse to let me carry you.
You kick and punch my tummy when I'm pregnant with your Meimei.
Boy, mummy loves you alot also, you know?
I know I've not been putting much effort in you and keep throwing you to auntie.
So now, you were never close to mummy.
I'm so upset!!
I hope it's not too late for me to build up our close mummy and son relationship.
Mummy loves you lots!

十二月初十五

2012-01-08T00:32:00.001+08:00

十二月初十五
Bravier boy turns 3 today in lunar calendar!
We're having a small party at home to celebrate his birthday!
Actual birthday will be on 10th Jan.

How time flies!
He's a big boy now and is a Korkor already.
Though he's slower than other peers but I think learning things slower also a blessing yeah?
:)

Kyrene's 2nd operation!

2011-12-07T00:52:00.002+08:00

We went out with a heavy heart at 6.45am.
I know, we're suppose to reach at 8am instead but hubby say since we're all prepared then went out early.
Who knows, no jam, nothing, and we reached at 7.10am at Day Surgery KKH.
Gosh!
Kyrene knows something gonna happen to her yet she pretend she's ok, pretend she's not afraid.
The more she pretend, the more i feel heartache and feel like crying.
How on earth that i didn't notice her thumb pain?
How on earth that i'm neglecting her and she have to kept silence whenever she's in pain?
I feel so bad as their mother.
Totally disappointed with myself.
I kept brushing her off whenever she fell down or in pain, because she always tells me when i'm busy with didi or meimei.
And i thought she's just seeking attention!
Arghhh.
Despite after weeks of therapy, there's not much improvement.
And the stupid Senior Doctor say there's no point dragging for further therapy and asked if we want to go ahead with operation.
I'm still hesitating but hubby say go ahead with operation.
Pissed me off!
I was also thinking maybe just leave it lor!
We seek for 2nd opinion but even that PD also suggest to go for operation.
And there, my poor Kyrene suffer from pain :(

Reached Day Surgery

Outside of Day Surgery.
I can sense her fear.

Her trigger thumb.

My pretty babe :)

Hubby went in with her to the operation theater as only 1 parent is allowed.
They went in at roughly 8.30am?
But hubby only came out at 9.45am.
Then hubby told me what they do to kyrene.
Kyrene is crying but with no sound as she doesn't know what will happen to her, she's feeling scared.
They intend to put the injection for her to sleep but she refused.
So they put on mask to let her sleep.
Hubby say before he left the theater, he asked the nurse if kyrene is ok, as he felt that kyrene's body still very stiff even after the mask.
The way he say, he like machiam want to cry liao lor!
I always say he heartless and no emotional one.
But comes to this, he also feel heartache.
When he tell me, i nearly want to cry liao lor.
Controlling my tears while we walked to kopitiam for some snacks.
End up, when hubby go toilet, i burst to tears.
A few people looking at me when my tears keep dropping and with no sound!
Wa lao...
I jitao cannot control liao lor.
Saw hubby came out from toilet, i faster wipe off my tears.
Walked to kopitiam, ordered food and finished liao, hubby went to order pizza to eat.
den immediately receive call from the reception that operation already finish and need 1 parent to standby her side incase she woke up.
hubby say the nurse told him it tooks 3-4hrs for her to wake up so say we can slowly walk there.
while waiting for hubby pizza to get ready, the nurse called me again and say kyrene is awake and is crying already.
Quickly took our pizza and faster run to the operation theater.
During the run, the nurse bomb my phone twice and keep telling me that kyrene is crying for us.
Wa lao...
I run even faster and so many ppl looking at me.
But end up leh, they only allow 1 parent, so i asked hubby go in.
i waited outside quite long lor before they allow me to go in!

she cried the moment she saw me.
I hugged her and she cry non-stop.
I'm controlling my tears when she's crying.

Her 2nd bravery certificate!

Super heartache :(

home sweet home after staying half a day there!

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2011-12-05T19:15:00.007+08:00

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If you do read every blogpost, you'll know, i went to Yun Nam for trial.
Had very serious problem with my oily, dandruff and hair loss!
I feel so pek cek whenever my hair starts to get oily at the end of the day.
Sometimes only half the day only, i start to feel itchy!
I have this problem eversince i give birth to meimei.
I suspect it could be due to my hormones as i'm still breastfeeding so my hormones not back to normal yet.
But at the same time, i still wish to continue breastfeeding, so not stopping yet.
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I went to NTUC and bought almost ALL the brand of shampoo that are for OILY hair type!
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He's currently using Head and Shoulder Mentol type also!
He's also impressed that the feeling of the shampoo works almost the same as his H&S Shampoo! He do not have oily hair but he also have serious dandruff problem!
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He don't really have hair fall problem but just trying it out lor!
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2011-12-04T12:58:00.002+08:00

kyrene is going for operation tomorrow morning for her trigger thumb.
poor kyrene, this is her 2nd operation since birth. :(
i know, everything gonna turns out fine for her.
i hope she can endure the pain after operation, will prepare brufen/paracetamol to ease her pain.
i'm more worried that she won't sit still or stay still after her operation, worried might injuried her wound.
arghh...

oh yeah, i feel that some people are so damn fake!!
if you dislike me, you can go ahead to remove me from your friend list.
save the trouble for me.
no point, looking at my facebook and make yourself 'eye red' over things i had.
tsktsk.
jealousy kills. :)
people like you , who likes to 挑拨离间 and make others dislike me, shows 'what kind' of person you are.
people who believes you are ignorant and don't know me well.
go ahead and judge me, as i don't really care.
go ahead and gossips about me, if you think this can spies up your life.
life is short, so i'm saving my time for better things.
不会和你们低级的一般见识 :)

Updates!

2011-11-20T01:11:00.004+08:00

have not been blogging, didn't post status on facebook/twitter much too.
everyday seems not enough for me!

People who thinks that I've someone helped me out means i'm very free!
Because they never had 3 kids at so near age gap, they will never understand!
And even if you do have 3 kids or more at close age gap, also doesn't mean i must do the same like you.
Different people have different ways of handling things.
Especially i'm such a clean freak, cannot tahan messy in my house.
Even when i'm alone looking after the 3 kids, i will plan my time well before i do anything.
I don't like 'think what do what', this kind of behaviour!
So-not-me!
Every day jitao not enough sleep.
Although sometimes felt hungry, but i think my beauty sleep more important, so i end up went to sleep with empty stomach.
But funny leh, i still no lose weight.
WTH!!!

currently i'm holding on a flash design project.
Happy, because i got a one-time off income for this project.
Scare, because my client is dealing with amulets/tailmans, black magic, genie all this.
Seriously, i very 胆小 one!
The more i discover on what he's doing now, the more scared i am.
Thinking to stop this project, but if i stop, later i bring more trouble for myself.
Wa lao...
Regret...
Please pray that everything goes well for me and the kids!!

Seriously, i really got no place to rant.
Facebook can't cos i dont like 'some people' in my friend list and yet they're stalking me!
Seems like even i post here, people also will anyhow think and start judging others.
Humans.
*shake head*
But i guess, i've not been blogging often so maybe no readers le bah.

New year coming soon already.
But before new year, it would be didi's 3rd birthday party.
At first, was thinking to celebrate among us.
But now he can request for a party and a cake.
Wow!
Though he's considered slow among all his peers, but i'm really happy when he starts to say what he wants.
No longer point here and there, no longer baby talks.
So as he requested, i'm thinking to have a small party at our home, at the same time as a house warming.
LOL.
I know the house warming is way belated, its been 2years since we moved in.
HAHAHA.
I've also mastered quite alot of nice dishes.
I'm all ready to home-cooked the food and serve them as 'buffet' on that day.
I'm also thinking to learn how to bake cake for his birthday too.

Anyway, i know kyrene will request the same party too.
I'm all ready for it.
But financial wise, is always NOT READY.
Sian ah!

Going CNY liao, time to buy clothes for the kids AGAIN.
Sian!
I just found out last year that even pyjamas also need to buy new one.
I didn't know leh.
So the kids only got a few piece of new clothings for day 1 to day 3.
other than that, its all wore before one.
Sometimes i feel so guilty towards them.
I see other mummies proud of have their girls, cos they can spend alot of money on their girls to doll them up.
I myself also have 2 girls, but i'm always on budget or no spare money to doll them up.
Upset and disappointed with myself.
Felt so useless! :(
Think i won't buy any CNY clothings for myself, as last time i also din buy.
I will save up the money to buy nice nice clothings for the kids then!
我爱我的三宝！

Oh, forgot to mention this.
I wasn't in good term with my neighbour because she's quite selfish and bad tempered.
She got herself another husband a year ago and he moved in with her.
He's really a nice person that he dote my kids alot, especially didi.
He's quite bias la, he would buy toys for didi only. :S
I don't like it.
Cos if want buy, then should buy for all my 3 kids mah.
If not, then don't buy.
I don't like to see kyrene's sad face when people buy things for her siblings only.
I felt damn heartache for her.
Anyway, the main point is, dunno why he suddenly got blood clot on his head and because he's already not feeling well on hari raya.
He drag for another 2 days then went in hospital.
By that time, there's something burst in his brain and he needed an operation immediately.
Before his operation, he keep crying to my neighbour that he missed didi alot.
As the risk of the operation was, he might go into coma forever or he might passed away during the operation.
He is afraid that he might not saw didi anymore.
Went my neighbour came home and told us, i felt damn upset and tears keep flowing down.
She put down her pride and speak to me for the first time.
I intend to bring didi down to visit him but he was pushed to operation theater the next day already as doctor say can't delay anymore.
Till now, no news as my neighbour didn't comes home.
More upset is, didi refuse to go visit him!!!
Don't know why leh.
He looked scared when we asked him to visit him.
He either sense something is not right, or he understand what we says.
I'm quite upset with didi's behaviour cos someone who love him so much yet he keep saying "NO", "I Don't want!" :(
But a few friends of mine tells me, its not a good idea to bring didi go visit him.
His face might looked different due to illness and may have many tubes or some support machine on his body.
Might frighten didi even more.
That's true also!
Sigh.
Why is life so fragile?
WHY?
多希望有长身不老药！:(

I'm so so so broke now.
Spend my money on groceries.
Gosh.
This month really spend alot in NTUC man!
Because i did that project and got $$, so i really bought alot of groceries to stock up at home.
OMG!
Now no money liao.
Yet i still gey kiang, want to find money to buy stationary sets for the orphange and homes.
I know, some people will say 做人要懂得自知肚明.
No money means no money, don't gey kiang want to help.
Some people might think i'm just ACTING.
But hor, seriously, i act give who see huh?
I never even tell anyone about this except hubby nia.
So i act give who see?
LOL!
I just want to help and hope to bring a smile to the kids when they receive their christmas present.
I just wanna help!
Sincerely wants to help!

God bless!

2011-10-26T03:32:00.001+08:00

Told Kyrene about charmaine's passing.
And she drew this for her.

She can be such a sweetie sometimes.
:)

My 3 kids!
Gives me the motivation to stay strong each day.
I pray everyday for theirs and my safety so I could see them grow up.
God, please don't take me away so soon!
Please let me stay longer!

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Random

2011-10-22T15:34:00.001+08:00

With make up on.

Without make up on.

Meimei and Kyrene's young time picture.
Look alike hor?

Am still breastfeeding, it's been 14months! ;)

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Meimei koh is amazing!

2011-10-14T00:57:00.001+08:00

I am very proud of Meimei koh.
She really impressed all of us.
I thought Kyrene was consider fast learner in everything we taught her but Meimei even more clever than her!!
Can't help but agreed that Breastmilk itself have DHA too not only formula milk!!!

At 13months, she can use iPhone and go to YouTube then go to the video we favorite for her!
;))

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no time!

2011-10-08T01:30:00.002+08:00

I actually have quite a number of stuffs that i wish to blog them down.
But i really don't have the time and energy to do so.
In the midst of editing my zencart apps and transfer them one by one from cubecart.
Not an easy task, as i'm still a beginner designer.

anyway, just a quick updates~
I've been cooking and baking quite often at home.
Save money ah!

Sweet and sour pork that i first time tried to cook!
Not bad leh, can fight with zi char stall ok! ^^

my first attempt to do 'Pau'!

the plain Pau for the kids!

then, the remaining i take and bake bread!
nice leh!
mai siao siao hor! ^^

this one is i recently learn one, braised beancurd with mince meat!
i don't eat beancurd one, unless go eat zi char stall, then i will order 铁板豆腐 !
so to save up abit of money, i went to google search for receipe and cook at home.
Nice wor!
Even hubby says so!
LOL!

I'm so tempted to open a small cafe business sia!
I don't wanna take over my MIL's business, cos sell food earn more than sell clothes lor.
Some more, if i manage to expand my business, still can pass down to my 3 kids lor!
At least, if i leave this world, there's one less thing to worry about.

Meimei koh's 1st birthday bash

2011-10-07T01:35:00.002+08:00

I'm able to spare sometime now as i just ate sinful supper.
*OOPS*
There goes, my diet plan.
AHHHHHhhh....
Everytime, after pumping milk, i will feel ultimate thirsty and hungry.
That's why i didnt lose any weight.
DAMN!

So i'm here to update some pictures of meimei koh's 1st birthday bash on 13th of August. =)
Her birthday bash was held at my inlaw's place, community hall.
Big and spacious space but damn dirty lor.
End up, we have to go there and sweep and mop the floor.

For meimei's birthday, i really put in alot of effort in preparing man!
I know, i sound damn bias, but since its my last baby, i just put in more effort.

Birthday banner that i design myself =)

With all my home-made muffins and cookies, goodies bags for kids and photo album to view =)

The buffet from Stamford.

Babies play area =)

The tag that i make myself =)

Hardsell shake head

2011-10-06T19:18:00.002+08:00

I'm amazed on how those sales person can hardsell their package to others.
No offends to those who are in this line la, ok?

I just felt disgusted by one of this sales girl trying to convince me to sign their facial package.
I was only there for their $8 trial but end up, they keep on physco me to upgrade it and ended up paying $50+ for a facial.
Though its not something i want, but i thought that this would be my last time to enter this place!
I manage to push away from her hardselling, telling her i've 3 kids and i'm not working, how am i going to afford this kind of facial thingy?
To me, to be able to go for facial is just a priviledge but not compulsory thing!
She never stop yaking of the things on me.
Saying if i can't afford, why can buy Victoria secret bag, why can buy burberry wallet and so on...
She really makes me goes 'WHAT THE FUCK?'

And since i've time to spare her, i let her know that my VS bag cost me less than $10?
My burberry wallet was bought 3years ago for my birthday and before i had my 2nd baby?
Seriously, i felt so digusted by her.
Why got such person one?
I know you need people to sign package to earn commissions la.
But need to say until like that or not?
Really damn WHAT THE HELL leh!

But they are not the worst la.
Another one, which is also under the same company with the above facial company hor, lagi jialat.
I want to claim my free slimming session, end up leh, spend 3hrs to convince me to sign and don't let me use my free session.
This one lagi best, lagi WHAT THE HELL please!!!
This lady ask me go home ask my hubby see whether i can sign first anot, then come back claim the free session.
KNN!
Do until like that, even i got money want to do, also won't go back to this company anymore!
I 不稀罕 the free session ok?
WHAT THE HELL~~~

Updates after 2months

2011-10-06T12:06:00.001+08:00

I've not been blogging for 2months.
Really damn busy with the kids and some voucher deals with some company.
But didn't turn out well :(

Meimei koh now 13months Liao!
Time flies and I miss her newborn times!
Both Didi and Jiejie are all well too, still fight and quarrel everyday!
LOL!

I've been busy since July with lots of birthday party every weekend!
Now oct already, I still have a few party invitation!

I'm blessed with friends who always remember me!
My memories start to get faded, my brain seems not able to absorb anymore things.
I've headaches almost everyday.
I forgot things easily even though it just happen like few mins ago.
I can't seems to recognize some people when I saw them on street until they went up to me.

Something maybe not right, but I will not go for a check up until I have money buy insurance!

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Birthday cake - DONE!

2011-07-31T00:01:00.002+08:00

Phew!
Finally less one thing to worry about.
Ordered meimei's birthday cake from Prima Deli.
Wa lao, really expensive de lor!
Just edit abit abit from their original cake only, and their customise price so HIGH than their non-customise cake.
Wa piang eh!

Now, at least some stuffs already done.
- Customise Birthday Banner
- Invitation Card to neighbours
- Venue Booked
- Customise Birthday Cake
- Goodies bags for Baby/Toddler and kiddos.
- Baking ware for homemade muffins for guests

Now looking for entertainment for the kiddos.
Thinking of renting candy floss machine or bouncing castle and something else.
But wa lao, NOT CHEAP leh.
Arghh!!
Also looking for photographer to help shoot during the event.
Sian.

I actually already booked a event photographer from my previous Snapz Image package.
Who knows?
The company closed down before my event start.
FML !!!
SIAN AH!

我要嫁给有钱人！！！！
要爱我，不在乎我漂不漂亮，不在乎我又没有钱，能够包容我的缺点，欣赏我的好。
I MUST BE DREAMING!
HAHAHA!

My dearest Great Grandmother At age 103

2011-07-30T23:28:00.003+08:00

Received a call on wednesday morning that my great grandmother passed away.
Couldn't find any of my relative contact.
No choice, my mum go all the way down to the coffee shop that my aunt used to work there, to find out the hp no. that my aunt is using.
Called for the whole afternoon but nobody picking up the calls.
Finally get through my small aunt house no. then realise that my big aunt already changed her contact no.
Wa lao!
Luckily, still in time to get the address and went down by cabby to the wake.
Kyrene, didi and meimei is consider the 5th generation already.
Kyrene is the FIRST great great grand-child in the family.
Other than my another cousin had a 1.5yrs old son also in 5th generation.

Went back to the wake on friday night for all the praying.
This time as i was in the rush after fetching kyrene back from her kids read program, went straight down to the wake with kyrene.
I tell myself, afterall is her great great grandma, whom she never saw before.
The thought of letting my great grandma to see kyrene for the last time, makes me wanna bring all the 3 kids down.
But hubby say don't want, so only let kyrene go.
Kyrene went to the wake and she looked so scared la!
Stick to hubby's body so closely.
Seeing her look so scared, told hubby to send her home as the praying will end quite late.
Yet kyrene refuse to go back home lor, she say she want to stay.
Wa piang eh.
Don't know how hubby manage to coax her to go home.
After praying finish, ask hubby come and fetch me home then i know that kyrene vomitted in the car the moment she step out of the wake.
Wa lao.
Say me pantang or whatever la.
Quickly ask kyrene pray to guan yin ma lor.
Luckily, hubby say the moment they step home, already ask kyrene pray liao.
Sigh.
Don't know is coincidence or what.
Sigh.

Then today is the 出殡日.
Seeing my great grandmother for the last time.
Lots of cries, screaming and more crying.
I hold my tears back as i really want my great grandmother to go peacefully.
The person incharge of funeral services also say that the more crying, the more my great grandmother wants to stay behind and not wanting to go to heaven.
I'm not very close to my great grandmother but at least when i'm small, my parents will bring me to her house every month.
I regret for not finding out where she lived and not bringing the kids to go visit her before she left the world.
又是另一个遗憾，永远的遗憾.
:(

& she passed away peacefully at St' Theresa Home of the age 103.
Great grandmother, we shall meet again in Heaven. :)

half done for meimei birthday~

2011-07-14T01:18:00.003+08:00

I've sort of 'aga aga' know wat i want to do for meimei's 1st birthday liao.
Still choosing on catering as i'm quite fussy on food so must see the money worth to spend on that caterer or not.
this can decide when nearer date cos normally catering takes order 3-7days will do.
same goes for cake, still thinking to get from which cake shop.

Anyway, i'm thinking to cook curry chicken on my own instead of opting it from catering, so got extra ingredients!
Also thinking to bake muffins or brownie as a 'thank you' gift to all the people who came.
Good idea hor?
Told hubby about it, he jitao 'HUH' before i say, i'm the one gonna bake.
He thought im going to order from others and make him spend money.
Anyway, also not his money what!
When i asked him, how to pay the catering and stuffs, he say use meimei baby bonus.
WTH!!!
So i hope ang baos can take back the baby bonus money.
but most importantly, everyone will enjoy her birthday party!!
We also bought a dress from Mini Princess for her 1st birthday.
Wah piang, its the most expensive dress meimei had, i think?
$23++ for a ballerina dress!
But hubby quite 舍得 to spend leh.
So 'not him' sia!
LOL!
At the same time, saw that they having 3 for $5 hair clips and hair band.
Wa lao, just like a week ago we spend $19 on 4 hairclips lor.
Then now got promo on certain hair clips.
Diao ! -_-
Anyway, dunno why i feel that meimei birthday party like abit too 寒酸 after i gotten invite for chalet, restuarant, indoor playground invitation for their kids party.
I feel that mine like so arghhh....
Sigh...
I so wanna go out and work lor!
At least, if i work, kids birthday budget will be more wider!
Sian~

unhappy.

2011-07-09T13:01:00.002+08:00

i'm very unhappy.
with his family.

firstly, we've been borrowing his parent's car every weekends as its our family day since his sister always using the car on weekdays.
so fine, gave in and only use on weekends.
now, even weekends also cannot use?
i know we are too spoilt by not using public transport.
but think of the fact that i have 3 young kids and still need to bring 2 big bags of the kids stuffs.
taking public transport make me even more pek cek when the kids misbehave.
yet, his sister sometimes just refuse to give in lor.
so yeah, another waste weekends staying at home!
ANGRY.
Anyway, went to buy flour to bake cake later.
so their weekend will not be so boring!

secondly, went to have lunch with his parents just now.
his mum reached the hawker first and offer to buy food for us.
so his mum called his dad what we want to eat.
his dad only ask his son (which is my hubby) what he wants to eat and jitao heck care about me!
his dad told his mum that 'ah boy(hubby) want eat porridge, others don't care la.'
WTF.
i know after so many years, giving them 3 grandchildrens, they still treat me as outsiders.
pissed off lor.
just feel that i'm not appreciated in their family.
always the outsiders.
sigh.

i wish i don't have to see them everyday.
despite we're staying in our own flat, they still dropby every morning.
pek cek.
they simply don't care about how i feel one lor.
everytime say those nasty words to others INFRONT of me.
guess its their family genes, because their son also do that.
tsktsk.
sometimes i wish i can bring the kids and hide and get away from them.
yes, included HIM.
sick and tired of them.
selfish and inconsiderate people.
my luck, meeting this kind of family in my life.
i know my words are harsh.
but if you guys are in my shoes, i think you guys may pity me instead of HIM.

one word, UNHAPPY!

Party venue!

2011-07-06T20:27:00.001+08:00

Finally booked and paid the venue at parents inlaw's house downstairs community hall.
Now searching for the stuffs inside goodie bags for the kids.
Like sweets, biscuits and some party packs stuffs.
Been getting invite to many birthday party this month, next month and next next month.
Can't wait to go shopping to find the kids birthday present!!! :)

To continue my cooking passion, I bought this Happycall pan through a bulk purchase!
It's made in Korea!

My first attempt using this pan!!

Loving it :)

Hair clips for my 2 princess!! :)

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Myself :)

2011-07-01T12:09:00.001+08:00

I was never a make up or skincare guru.
I only put on make up on certain occasion only.
I know nuts about skincare and cosmetic thus I always dress or look older than my actual age.
How sad!
But choosing over comfortably or prettier, I choose comfortable so when I look after the kids will be easier.

We went for a family photoshoot!

Bravier boy!

Kyrene princess!

Meimei Kathleen!
Her forever snook face, Wahahaha!

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Hada Labo Retinol Lotion

2011-06-29T17:27:00.004+08:00

My first sponsored advertorial!

My very first hada Labo hydrating lotion which I bought from Watsons!

Heard lots of good review from many ladies about this '1 sold every 4seconds in japan!'
Really not bad and hydrating lor!

Thanks to the sample store!
I've gotten another sample for this Lifting and Firming Range, Retinol Lotion!

One Drop Restores Youthful Bounciness!
This toner evens skin texture with Retinol Vitamin A that reduces fine lines and wrinkles, collagen that improves skin elasticity for firmer and more lift in your skin, and Super Hyaluronic Acid that instantly locks in moisture for intense hydration!

And this is me after applying the lotion!

I simply love this lotion as there's no sticky feeling.
You must really tap it in to let the lotion absorb in your skin!!!
What's more?
The pricing is very afforable!!!
Only $25.90 and you only need to use abit of it to put on your face.
So this 170ml can last you for quite sometime!!!

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After trying out the sample, you can buy them off the shelves at Watsons!!!

Updates!

2011-06-22T18:50:00.003+08:00

Sorry, i'm really lazy to blog la.
Thanks to facebook and iphone apps lor.
LOL!

Anyway, did i mention that hubby bought me Miracle Water by SK-II?
If you don't know what's that, its Facial Treatment Essences la!
Through the advertisement, they always say 神奇水 mah!
Hahaha!
My first SK-II hor, mai siao siao!
But think my face not suitable to use expensive skincare la.
Everytime i put on, my face like burning with sting sting feeling.
Is it ok or not huh?
Anyway, i can't wait to faster finish the bottle la.
Yet i also don't want too fast finish cause so expensive leh.
Wa lao, my face all along use cheapo things one leh.
Just solely tap water and 1 silkpro cleanser.
But after i found out about Elishacoy 3 in 1 cleanser, i decide to buy and try.
So far so good!
Recently also bought Hada Labo to hydrate my face.
I finally know how to 'protect' my skin after this 23yrs of 'heck care-ing' my stupid face liao!
Hahahaha!
I know, just that is not enough la.
But i need MONEY to come then i can spend MONEY mah.

Anyway, am starting to plan for meimei 1st birthday.
Again, need MONEY then can plan until pretty pretty la.
No money, can only simple simple celebrate.
Told hubby that meimei is our last child, so no more 1yr old birthday to celebrate le la.
So i thinking to do slightly bigger party rather than order buffet at home and invite ppl eat and that's it.
So boring leh!

upset

2011-06-17T02:53:00.002+08:00

just heard a upset news.
one of my neighbour at my parent's place, suffering from heart problems, been in and out of hospital frequently.
the moment she saw us, she started tearing and telling us that she's suffering everyday.
my heart sank to depth yet there's nothing i can help her.
i don't have the money, don't have any knowledge in medical, don't know any specialist to help her.
totally upset upon hearing this news.
life is simply so fragile.
穷人真的不能生病！
where to find money to do treatment?
sigh...

i've been telling myself, i shouldn't waste time to get angry or bothered about stupid stuffs.
just live our life to fullest.
did what you wanted to, so as there's no regret before u leave the world.
up till now, i still don't dare to do full body check up.
very scare to hear negative results.
:(

my complicated 2011

2011-06-14T16:33:00.003+08:00

really lots and lots of things happen recently.
disappointed and can't believe what he did behind my back.
真是人不可貌相！
the more decent a person look, the more complicated he is.
tsktsk!
the word, 七年之痒 is so true and works!
sigh.

anyway, my daily life is always the same.
like a fix schedule.
morning wake up prepare to go market with inlaws and the 3 kids then eat lunch.
come back, coax meimei and didi to nap.
then once they wake up, play with them a while and prepare ingredients for dinner.
then cook dinner and look after the kids.
coax meimei to nap again and all of us watching 7pm show, 爱！
den make didi sleep at 9plus or 10, den look after kyrene and meimei.
recently, meimei only sleep at 1-2am?
then kyrene kept crying in the middle of the night, really dunno wat she wants.
so when i'm totally asleep, its already 3-4am lor!
den the next day, i got to wake up at 9am again.
sian!
totally no life!
i so wanna go back to working life!!!

Photos!

2011-06-03T01:28:00.001+08:00

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Recents up and down

2011-05-24T22:48:00.001+08:00

Lots of up and down recently.
If you're in my Facebook and happen to saw those post before I delete them off, you're lucky then.
Though it's been silent for few days, but I seriously will never forget what it had happens.
Someone said, im too 执着 that I should think about the future, think abt the kids sake and let go the small issue.
Another person also told me, we are now in marriage and not a relationship, there is certain things we just have to let go and close one eye.
Through this recent incidents, I really learn alot.
I learnt not to hide my feelings, be it happy or not happy.
Learnt to stay strong and think correctly.
Learnt to share my problems with others and not kept them inside of me.

Anyway, I'm still looking for job.
At the same time, I really can't bear to leave my kids with others.
Having a job will makes me independent but maybe doesn't helps in marriage.
We only talks about kids issue because I'm at home and I always keep him inform about kids progress.
Cannot imagine if I go to work and I will only get to know my kids progress from others.
And this may lesser our usual talks.
I always think that guys who asked their wife not to work, stay at home look after the kids and stay out of contact from outside world is totally selfish.
Because they doesn't want their wife knows bad about them.
Or doesn't want their wife to have another thought of choosing another lifetime partner.
But now, I really wish if I could stay at home and look after the kids.
But i guess, I have to go to work to be independent and not rely on him.
Though I'm quite upset that he have been chasing me to go back to work.
Because he don't understand my feelings at all as a stay at home mum for 5years.

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updates!

2011-05-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

seriously, i don't have the mood to do anything.
my paypal account kena hacked and this damn fucker 'sent payment' of USD$1000 to his account.
Cheesepie!
At first, he tried $3000USD and it didn't went through.
OF COS LA, MY BANK WHERE GOT SO MUCH MONEY.
KNN, den he tried usd$1000 and it went through.
OF COS LA, Thanks to grow and share lor.
but now, all my grow and share money plus some spree's money taken by this damn fucker!
pek cek!
everyday no mood, everyday check my bank to see if the funds credit back to me.
call up dbs, paypal to chase them.
but both pushing blame to each other.
sibei sad!
jitao no mood for anything!!!
now all i want to do is, earn money during this period of time.
if not, can't survive!!!

FYI , he have not been giving me any allowance for very long time.
think 1year or 2years already.
i earn my own daily allowance one lor!
one of the reason, why i wanna go back to work.
but i really can't bear to leave my kids behind. :(

seriously, this year is really a bad bad year for me.
too much things happen...
be it about childrens, relationship, jobs, money and any other issue, it seems like nothing is right.
feeling so upset and fuck up sometimes.
i am hoping, all my bad luck can go away and let the good luck come to me soon.
i really need some good luck!
:(
god, please give me the strength to carry on my life.
pleaseeeeeeeee!

sticky / work force

2011-05-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

i can finally understand how 'sticky' a child can be.
omg!
meimei is really so sticky to me that i can hardly do my things.
she would scream, cry and refuse to sleep if i'm not the one who make her sleep.
really so sticky that i have no free time to do anything.
i'm soooooo sleepy!
she only naps once or twice a day only lor.
sian :(

i see a mummy who preparing for her son 1yr old birthday.
really damn envy!!!
she've no budget for the party, just want everything to be nice and well done.
choose restuarant to hold her son 1yr old birthday.
goodie bags with no budget at all.
super envy lor!!!
how i wish i have no budget too.
sigh.
sometimes i also wish i can shop in peace with no budget.
just for a day, i also happy lor.

am in a dilema lor.
can say that i'm prepared to go back to workforce already.
but on the other hand, i haven't settled my kids yet.
worry this and that, unlike someone, who never bother at all.
only wants me to faster go work to lesser his burden.
damn wtf.
i actually damn 不舍得 my kids and go back work.
:(

rants!

2011-04-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

My handsome boy!

My pretty little girl

My pretty big girl!

i seriously hate this kind of feeling.
i just want to save a few bucks and i choose to place an order with the kids diapers/milk powder from an online store.
but they only process my order 3days later upon receiving my payment.
hubby's salary not out yet and didi's diapers already run out.
so i plead them to process my order on the same day upon receiving my payment yet they rejected my request.
makes me feel that i'm a begger.
我恨透了这样的感觉！
I have to admit that i am a 大女人 and i also those kind of 死要面子的人！
but for the sake of my kids, i plead them yet they 没有人情味！
despite i told them the reason why i needed my order so urgently.
they still can say, almost every customer said them to them and they can't always fulfill customer request.
damn wtf.
seriously, money is really an evil thing.
because i want to save that few bucks, i choose to 低声下气，厚着脸皮 to buy from them again.
this also one of the reason why i want to go to work.
with just the only breadwinner at home, i have to save even just few cents.
in my dictionary, its okay to waste time but not okay to waste money.
i can waste my time just to save that few bucks.
if i were to go to work, i guess i won't behave like this.
totally not-me at all.
sometimes, i feel that there's a 距离 with people at my age.
i behave like an auntie who always want to save save save!

p/s : just ranting only. i never regret choosing this path. NOT AT ALL. :)

love-hate feeling

2011-04-29T00:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes i have this love-hate feeling in me.
sometimes i will think that i shouldn't have bravier or meimei in the first place, so kyrene could get all my attention and i can concentrate on her.
i can give her my best.
at least, when she's now at the age of 5, she can go to school and i will have no other worries when go to work.
then i will have the money to give her enrichment classes and so on.
but i also have no regret bringing didi and meimei to the world.
every child is different and the 3 of them gives me different kind of feelings as a mother.
i tried my best to bond with them by taking one of them out with me sometimes.

p/s : i think no one read my blog anymore? ^^

job hunting

2011-04-25T03:11:00.003+08:00

Sent out my resume to a few companies.
But till now no reply lor.
Sibei sian!
Any job intro? :(

went out alone without the kids to meet ky and xl.
i feel so relax and enjoy myself for that 4hours!!!
i so wanted more of it!
but sigh, i cannot be so selfish.
once is enough le ba?
:(
for the first time, i enjoy sweating and walking all the way home from bedok MRT.
LOL!
I so wanted to go for jogging.
I need kakis!

Random

2011-04-25T02:53:00.001+08:00

She look so different here.

P/s : I don't want to know the truth till I'm fully ready to accept and leave this place.

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About life

2011-04-24T19:17:00.002+08:00

each time i read her blog, i will cry lor.
she lost her 7months old baby boy.
i'm happy for her that she manage to pregnant with another baby now.
what she said is true.

大家都说有了新的
你就会忘记了
怎么会忘记呢？自己生的孩子
自己照顾他看着他一天一天的长大
会笑了会动了会要你跟他玩耍
怎么会因为有新的孩子就忘记他了呢？
取代不了因为他是他肚子里的是他自己

有一个人他的孩子快要死了
医生都说没有求了
于是他去找了这位大师
他求大师要救她的孩子
法师说当然我一定帮你们
首先你要去这个村子里面找一户家他们那里家没有死过人的
拿他们家的草给你孩子吃就行了
她很开心的马上就去问了
结果问了一间又一间
整个村子的人都被他翻过来问了
每个人的答案都是一样
每个人的家都死过人

这下他明白了法师的意思

i totally understand that 法师的意思.
I fully understand 生离死别是必须的.
We came to this world empty, we will also leave this world empty.
We just need to stay happy each day.
Lesser your burden, lesser your stress, live your life to the fullest.

Changed.

2011-04-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

We can no longer communicate well.
Once start to talk, will end up aruging or quarralling.
Before you think i'm unreasonable or whatsoever.
Think again, i'd never changed single bit, my temper is always the same.
It was you who had changed.
You like to listen nonsense from others and then start to treat me differently.
You're a scary creature because you act like a 'good man' infront of others.
But at the back, you're a selfish and lazy man.
You push all the blame to me because you can't take stress.

No matter what i say, people just think you're the good guy because you acted very well.
I don't like to act, infact i don't know how to act.
Thus i become the bad person and everyone will not believe on what you had did to this family.
Doesn't matter.
I don't really care what others think of me.
If you knows me well, you will know, what kind of person i am.
I maybe bad temper, but i will never hide my unhappiness.
I also will not purposely do something to please someone.
I'm not this kind of person.
To me, nothing is important except my kids.

Meimei bursting cheeks

2011-04-15T17:56:00.001+08:00

See her bursting cheeks!
I so wanna pinch hard!
Hahahaha!

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Unhappy

2011-04-15T00:39:00.001+08:00

I am not happy.
Stress over many issue.
Having headache, diarrhea and giddiness.
Not happy especially with him.
Upset because of Kyrene and didi.
No where to vent.
No one to talk to.
Sick and tired of my life sometimes.
:(:(:(

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Lazy !

2011-04-08T01:29:00.001+08:00

I'm sleepy and lazy....
Lazy to go into the walk in wardrobe and find clothes for Meimei to wear.
Realise she outgrown some clothes especially romper that can't button already.
But I very lazy to dig the boxes out one by one to find.
Arghhh!

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Recover soon, Kyrene!

2011-03-30T14:53:00.001+08:00

She looked pale.
No eating since Saturday only drink.
Her throat have so many ulcer that even swallow saliva also damn pain for her.

Peeping at the door seeing Didi and Meimei playing.
I can't control my tears and cry upon seeing this.
Tell me, as their mother, 我这么可能不心痛？
:(:(:(

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poor kyrene!

2011-03-28T14:25:00.004+08:00

brought her down to kkh last night as she cried for throat pain every few minutes. i simply can't sleep well ! went there, waited 3hrs before seeing a doctor, WTF . but there's another couple kpkb the nurse as they waited 6hrs already. omg! went in see the doctor and the damn doctor really damn sarcastic. instead of telling parents what to do, he purposely make his words like a puzzle and expect ppl to go figure out ourselves. WTF. nearly want to screw him up. especially kyrene is so cranky already and make us so frustrated. then this damn doctor still can come and say us, 'don't get so frustrated, she's not faking it. she doesn't mean it to be so cranky!' ok, my bad! my poor kyrene down with dunno wat name of sickness. something like HFMD but without those red spot on hands and feets. now i'm so worried that she may spread to didi and meimei. kept her in the masterbedroom, like machiam quarantine. she keep crying cos she doesn't want to stay in the room for the whole day. so poor thing :(

mind my own business!

2011-03-27T00:12:00.003+08:00

i know i should mind my own business and shut up.
that's why i didn't say anything except blogging here.
seriously hor, if you decide to TTC for another baby, i assume that you're financial ready or mentally ready for another sleepless night.
after concieve, keep telling others you tried so HARD for this baby yet you kept asking for free things or donation.
WTF right?
is it 'kiam meh' (want to kena scold right)?
roll eyes!

because i think its not right.
so i never offer to help lor.
met a mummy who had 8 childrens, i did not asked why she is so 'needy' already yet still give birth 8 kids.
further more, she had miscarriage twice, so she actually had 10 pregnancy.
it could be religion that's why she cant abort or something.
but precaution should be done when you had your first or second time of accident, isn't it?
why purposely create so many accidents?
i ever came across a thread saying that some are not allow to use condom at all.
like wtf?
and they also cannot don't 'DO', if never do, the marriage will be on the rock.
even WTF right?
i really have nothing to say or advise them.
humans are really hard to please.
*shake head*

anyway, i always have this thinking.
要生就要教咯！
i can't wait for the kids to grow up so i can go work, go enjoy and all this!
称自己年轻，快点享受
age wait for no one!
haha!

unlucky year!

2011-03-26T20:18:00.002+08:00

this year is really a damn suay year!!!
first, meimei fell and broke her collar bone.
second, kyrene had another episode of fits yesterday, which scare the hell out of us!!!
brought her to nearby clinic as the timing is too jam to go kkh already.
arghhh...
again, due to mishandling her fits, she bite her right cheek gum unknowingly.
there's nothing can be done as we're not suppose to touch her when she's having fits.
really damn Fuckup!!
i was pumping milk and hubby was just right infront of kyrene and he's watching tv!
when run to clinic, den find out her fever was 41.5degree, so fucking high!!!
its emergency case, the GP stays with hubby in another room to make sure no another episode of fits.
i kena chase out of the room as the doc say im too panicky.
like WTF, really. -_-
then when hubby carry her out of the room, her temperature drop to 40.1 degree.
still on very high side!
really damn WTF lor, how can we be so careless to let her fever shoot up so high.
WTFFFFF !
so for the whole night, i don dare to fall into deep sleep.
put alarm clock every 1hr to wake myself up to check on her.
thank god that last night everything was under controlled.
till now, i cannot forget the scenes that she had the fits episode ytd.
a total scary and nightmare!!!

yet hubby still continue went for his company retreat and he will only be back on sunday.
inlaws have been saying, why he still went when his daughter is so sick.
obviously, he didnt even bother to ask whether he can don't go or not.
sometimes, this kind of small little things, can prove what kind of father he is.
tsktsk.
i alone, can handle the 3 kids. =)

poor meimei keep wanting me to carry her and pat her to sleep.
no choice, i got to keep changing another set of clothes and use hand sanitizer to clean myself before carry her.
on the other side, kyrene doesn't allows me to leave the room!
aiyo !
if only i can split myself into 2 for them.
luckily, didi can entertain and play himself.

My 3 precious!

2011-03-24T00:33:00.001+08:00

Have not been blogging and Facebook much.
All becos of Hubby la!
Go install kingdom at war on my iPhone and now I addicted to it!
Lol!

Miss the kids???? :P

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYRENE!

2011-03-22T13:34:00.002+08:00

i know im abit late and slow in this.
but

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYRENE!
Because of you, i step into the motherhood life at young age.
Because of you, i learn to be a better person, a better mother.
Because of you, i learn to love a person more than myself.
Because of you, the most happiest word in the world, 'mummy' came from your mouth.
You, didi and meimei are my everything.
No regrets at all.

I love you, my precious big princess :)

Workforce

2011-03-15T15:01:00.001+08:00

I don't know if my decisions is right or wrong.
But definitely i think for the best for my kids.
Thinking to put Didi in childcare a nd let helper to look after Kyrene and Meimei.

Is it the best choice?
Can I ever find a helpful helper to help me with 3 kids?
I myself also Bth them!
Am I making the right choice?
I so wanna go back to work force.
:(

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Please pray for her speedy recovery

2011-03-14T01:32:00.001+08:00

She seems to back to her normal self.
At times, she forgotten her injured arms and accidentally hurt it.
Cry out loudly which make me super heartache.
How I wish I'm able to suffer on her behalf.

I guess I will guilty for life.
Please pray for her speedy recovery.
Thank you!

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My poor baby girl

2011-03-13T23:40:00.001+08:00

For those who are in my Facebook friend list will know that Meimei admit into hospital due to fell down from our bed.
Cried for 2 hrs before I decide to bring her to see a doctor.
On the way to doctor, she had no response and doctor suspect maybe she fainted.
So I rush down to kkh and stupidly waiting for que number.
So does fainted babies considered not emergency at all?
*roll eyes*
anyway, I was crying badly in the car la cos MIL keep saying those hurtful words and hurt me.
My tears just uncontrollable and drop down.
Felt so helpless when I'm alone handling.
Luckily Hubby rush down after that.

After all the big hooha, she woke up and continue crying.
Even doctor also dunno which part of her is injured.
But thank god that they just give her paracetamol so which ever part of her is injured can at least ease her pain for a while.
Then I notice her that she is not moving her left hand.
Her master hand is left from my experience in taking care of her.
So definitely I felt weird when she only use 1 hand.
Told the doctor but they keep saying it's alright and nothing wrong.
But she is still crying like mad when we hold her left hand up.

Meimei after crying for 6hrs.

Finally, settled down.

Can see that she is not using her left hand.

The next day, they discharge her.
Went home less than 30mins I notice that her shoulder is swelling badly.
Suspect that is the cause to make her cry so badly.
So went back to kkh again.
Stupidly paid the $85 consultation fee which I think it's not our fault at all.
They finally suggest X-ray for her.
Seen a senior doctor and yes, she broke her collar bone during the fall.
I nearly cry on the spot when see the X-ray report.
Heartache like dunno what!!!!
Told him that I did mentiony concern during her stay in the ward but no one bothers.
He waive off the charges for us.
That's not my point actually.
Doctors should also listen to what the baby mothers say since we are the mother we definitely knows it well when our babies behave differently isn't it?
Upset lor!

My poor girl.

Nothing can be done except letting the bone to heal back on it's own.
:(

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Sorry baby girl :(

2011-03-13T00:56:00.001+08:00

I know whatever I say will not help to ease my baby pain.
I am really sorry baby girl to make you suffer so much.
I really really wish that the one who suffer now is me and not you.
Its a big trauma to you though you may not remember it when u grow up.
But mummy will never forget how much u suffer becos of my carelessness.
I never expect the fall will make your bone break.
I'm really sorry baby.
I just can't stop blaming, having regrets and heartaches to see u suffer.
Sorry Meimei, mummy love you many many no matter what happens.
:(:(:(

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同人不同命

2011-03-10T02:25:00.002+08:00

wa lao, really is 同人不同命 lor!
me is stay at home mum, other people oso stay at home mum.
but why they no need work and still can get things they want.
while me, 'working' so hard to save up money for kids diapers and milk powder, still no money to buy stuffs for myself.
sian!

finally chop my hair off.
like omg lor!
quite short hair and make my face rounder.
wtf!!!
i so wanna go rebonding.
MONEY PLEASE!

formspring.me

2011-03-09T23:17:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything but i may not answer them all :) http://www.formspring.me/krissyng

My 3 darlings are sick!

2011-03-08T01:57:00.001+08:00

She was down with fever for the first time!
Even when she took jabs, she didn't had any fever at all.
Worried as she was cranky for the whole day then realize she had fever.
So guilty as I was busy with Didi as the elder 2 kids keep fighting every minutes!!!

Anyway, she is ok now already.
But gotten another flu virus which make her having fever.
Poor Meimei!
The 2 kids still coughing badly and occasionally cough until vomit.
So heart pain to see them cough so hard.
Seems like the medicine is totally useless to them.
Should I bring them to another pd?
Though have been spending nearly 1k since Jan because of their sickness.
Sigh.
Having sensitive airway and childhood asthma really takes very very long to recover.
Kyrene suppose no more wheezing sound but now her lungs start to have those funny sound again when she breathe.
So worry she kena bronchitis. Sigh

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2nd hand

2011-03-04T14:34:00.002+08:00

last month bought 3 boxes of breastpad from a seller.
thought i get a good deal at $5 per box.
who knows, all the breastpad inside turns brown already.
oh my....
all the breastpad are indivisual sealed but don't know why it all turns brown and mouldy.
so upset and i smsed that seller.
she is more willing to refund me lor.
i'm glad that i met a good seller.
from then on, i don't dare to buy '2nd hand' from other seller liao.
so am waiting for taka baby fair so i can go stock up breastpad.

last year, i bought a 2nd hand medela freestyle.
really a big hoo-ha in the forum and i nearly want to make a police report on that seller who cheated me.
sigh.
really no fate in buy 2nd hand items.
yet, i'm not willing to spend on new items.
:(

toys

2011-03-02T18:38:00.005+08:00

seriously hor, most of my kids toys are passed down.
if you think my kids toys is many, don't forget, I HAVE 3 kids!
so during their birthdays, full month, sure have toys what and you need to multiply 3 isn't it?
And hor, that KAYPO really damn KAYPO, her daughter toys alone already more than my kids toys.
still dare to say ME SUPER RICH?
wtf.
look who's talking!
she now sure more rich than me, cos she don't even need to support her daughter since her daughter is with her ex-husband.
nevermind, like what my mummies group said, she like to STALK me lah.
knn!

i like to see them play together!
very rare scenes as kyrene dislike to play with her brother!
and the toys ALOT meh?
only this small area nia cos my house got no storeroom!

i'm sensitive and fragile, please handle me with care!

Clever Meimei

2011-03-02T00:54:00.001+08:00

She can stand up with support on her own.
She is 6months and 1 week old :)

YouTube Video

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my life!

2011-03-01T02:48:00.004+08:00

get to know that quite a few friends are preggy #2 or #3 now.
omg, for that moment, i wish i'm pregnant too.
FOR THAT MOMENT ONLY LAH!
But the thought of not enough sleep, colicky baby, trouble of going out and many more.
really turns me off.
so nah, no more #4 for me!

i've been trying to take some time to blog but really don't have the time to.
meimei now only nap once or twice a day.
her longest nap was like 1hr?
shortest nap can be as fast as 10minutes.
really no time to do anything, even go to the loo also difficult!
few days ago, meimei fell down from our bed.
me and her was napping together but she woke up earlier than me and she crawl out of the pillows and fell down on the floor.
i heard a loud bang and follow by her cries, i quickly woke up and find out that she went missing.
next moment i saw her, she's already on the floor.
eversince she fell, she cry the moment we put her on the floor.
sigh.
so guilty lor!

anyway, i wanted to blog about this.
people have been envy me because i don't have to work and stay at home looking after kids.
seriously, who knows the truth story behind?
they do not know how much i've struggle to be a stay at home mum of my kids.
i don't get to buy my things, i don't get to go out freely like those working mums.
they envy me and i envy them lor.
they earn and buy their own things.
while me, have to calculate daily expenses and struggle to save those pathetic money and yet i'm still not able to buy things for myself.
i think nothing is fair.
you work, you get the money and buy things you want but maybe miss out your childrens growing up stage.
seriously, if i can find a trustable person to help me with my 3 kids, i definitely hoping to go back to work force.
i do not wish to become a housewife for the rest of my life.
totally NO LIFE and sometimes, i do hate it!
sigh.
so when people thinks i'm good life, what do they know?
they can never understand my situations.

Clever Meimei

2011-02-28T02:22:00.001+08:00

Did I mention before that Meimei can stand on her own for quite sometime by holding on to something?
Very clever and fast learner indeed.
Some people says maybe because she is more active also.
Sian lor, all my 3 kids are all active type, really can 累死我!!!

Brought the kids to bouncing kids at kovan bus interchange, if I'm not wrong.
Thanks to Hubby sourcing this indoor playground.
Before that, we saw something cute outside and Kyrene wants to take pic with them!

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My darlings!

2011-02-25T01:26:00.001+08:00

My 3 darlings!
Love them more than anything!

She is growing so fast that I cant catch up!
She can crawl, can hold things to support herself to stand up, and many more!
Amazing and proud of her!

Her sleeping pattern again!

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The icing room!

2011-02-24T00:29:00.001+08:00

We went to the icing room as I bought the $9.90 voucher from groupon!
Damn worth it lor!!!
Should have bought more vouchers!

Quite ugly lol!!

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My life is completed

2011-02-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

there is so many things, so many topics that i wanna blog.
but there is so little time for me to sit down and blog.
sigh...

anyway, one of my friend bring up this topic about her 2nd baby completes her life.
this makes me have alot of 感触.
i would say that being a mother completes my life, totally.
before that, i simply don't really bother much about my health, my life.
and always feel that my life is not complete.
feel that my life lack of 'something' which i don't know what is it.
ever thought that i can die anytime i want since i have no commitments.
but after having kids, i treat my health and life very seriously.
i have commitments now.
i need to be responsible and take care of my 3 kids by myself.
its my duty.
so from 'buay kia si'（不怕死） to 'sibei kia si'（非常怕死） now.
LOL!
But i am still willing to sacrified, just for my kids.
the one that i pregnant, the one that i gave birth to them.
i'm all willing to die for them!

Though i always get angry with the kids.
Though now i don't have much friends as i am a full time mother.
Though i'm lack of freedom.
Though i've to be very spendthrift.
Though i look older than my age.
Though i'm fatter than before now.
I'd never regret being a mother at such a young age.
The joys, sadness, angry-ness, worry-ness that they had gave me which cannot be replaced.
无可取代！
Contented, really.

me-time =)

2011-02-20T11:13:00.004+08:00

finally, some freetime for myself.
i'm down with mastitis AGAIN -.-
so he brought the 3 kids out to have lunch with his parents.

its been quite sometime since i last blog about his parents.
they are those kind that their kids is human, other people kids are grass!
他们的孩子是宝，别人的孩子是草！
dulan one leh.
always never treat me as their family members.
always feel so left out :(
more sian is i can't even post on facebook as his sisters and father are on my facebook.
arghhh !

anyway, i'm thinking to end my breastfeeding journey already.
sick of getting mastitis every 2weeks. :(
cannot tahan the pain, shivering, fever and feeling weak.
i think my body is immune of antibiotics already thus it doesn't work on me anymore.
sigh.
but anyway, i understand how important about life.
money is important too but to me, compare money and my life, i rather heck care about money.
i have been telling myself to enjoy the fullest of my life rather than everyday worried about money.
i can't bring the money with me once i'm gone anyway.
i hope i can keep having this positive thinking rather than stressing myself over money issue.
no point, no point at all!

p/s : i removed my cbox as too many 'spam bot' already. there's a comments box on each of my blogpost. =)

sickkkk

2011-02-18T03:11:00.002+08:00

i dunno im down with what virus.
i'm sneezing like mad, running nose and throat hurts.
yet i'm crazy enough to shower at 1am cause that's the only free time i can shower while all 3 kids asleep.
mad totally and i sneeze non-stop with tap running on my nose.
i waste alot of tissues and nose red and pain.
ARGHH!
the 3 kids also down with running nose and kyrene is coughing like mad.
:(

Pictures

2011-02-14T01:54:00.001+08:00

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11th feb

2011-02-13T01:38:00.003+08:00

11th feb 2011
hubby called me and told me that best denki having crazy sales.
buy laptop, free lcd tv, free sound bar, all at $1388.
such a good deal meh?
dunno got gimmicks anot.
but he asked all his ex-collegues in harvey norman, even his ex-manager also say good deal.
seriously, if deal so great, why no que huh?
anyway, for those who are interested can go best denki to take a look. =)

went over brayden's 1st birthday bash.
suppose to meet up with my primary schoolmate but quite late alrdy after i went home to pump milk.
sometimes feel like giving up on pumping milk lor.
every 4hrs must pump, and cannot go out more than 4hrs as i hate the 'full breast' feeling.
arghhh...
for my meimei, i will try to feed her as long as possible.

edited on 13th feb

2011-02-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

Kyrene is such a lucky girl.
Her grandparents knows she love lion dance alot specially bought a $98 ticket for her to watch lion dance event.

Watch 秘密花园 just now and realize there is this 'beyond parental control' law.
Lol.
I think Kyrene is under this lor.
She really makes my blood boil every minutes!!!
Feel like throwing her to her grandparents there and let her 自身自灭!

this afternoon, she cried like nobody business just because i ate her swiss roll.
then she scream at me that next time if anyone bought her stuffs, i cannot eat.
wah, you don't know how angry i am.
smoke coming out from my ears soon lor!
but i control my temper as she 吃软不吃硬 one.
with my this kind of temper, i sure blow my top and wanna slap her.
but i controlled my temper alot, as she is no longer a baby.
she understand all our words and feel hurt easily.
sometimes, i have forgotten she's like an adult, fragile and needed to handle with care.
sometimes, i hurt her with my words.
feeling guilty and i put more attention to her.
trust me, my temper towards gets better.
everytime i think of those joys and laughter she brought to me, it really helps to control my temper towards her.
i do love her lots.
but sometimes, can't help angry with her when she doesn't love her brother.
i am still trying, still trying to make her love her brother.
i am truly regret for neglecting her in the past and only concentrate on didi as i was the caretaker. :(
when you're tired looking after colicky baby, you tend to be more short tempered.
then whatever your elder child do, you also 不顺眼.
then here comes the scolding, blaming and beating.
maybe that's why she dislike her brother.
sigh.

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quick updates

2011-02-09T02:10:00.002+08:00

a quick post to update.

last tuesday went to see a specialist regarding my recurring mastitis.
totally waste $300+ for nothing, just a few mins of chatting and cost nearly $200, then do a ultrasound and another $100+.
worst of all, the doctor say there's nothing she need to do and the only way is stop breastfeeding.
pay $300+ to hear her telling me to stop breastfeeding.
anyway, the ultrasound result was i have many diluted ducts inside and maybe the reason why that i keep having mastitis repeatedly.
:(
again, the specialist suggest me to stop breastfeeding.

den suay suay, the next day which is the cny eve, i kena mastitis.
FML totally.
totally lost count, think its 5th or 6th time of kena mastitis since november.
sigh.
told hubby that i kena one more time, im gonna stop breastfeeding liao.
nobody as suay as me liao.
FML!
then early morning i go see a malay GP.
she suggest me to change the shield funnel to the accurate size of my nipple.
as i kena mastitis is because my sensitive sore nipples kept having baterias going in.
given 2 types of antibiotics. =)
so i went to use back size M shield now.
so far so good.
hoho...

seriously, its already CNY, i still haven't springclean my house.
i'm lazy until dunno what lah!
sleep also not enough liao.
sigh.
been wanting to go for facial, but nobody help me with kids, i can't get away at all.
want to go do my hair, again nobody help me with my kids.
ARGH!
i need money, need some free time lor.
FML !
am looking for part time night job that i can go work while hubby back at home with the kids.

these past few days, i keep having dreams that i was holding a pregnancy test kit with '+' sign.
i scream like dunno what!
panicked, worried, upsets, all those feelings seems so real that i wanna die immediately!
this prove that i really really dont want anymore baby.
really can't handle, be it financially or mentally. :(

初一

2011-02-04T09:36:00.001+08:00

My little princess :)

My big princess :)

Bun her hair up as she requested!

My prince!!

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Cny eve!

2011-02-02T23:45:00.001+08:00

Here to blog, happy new year everyone! :)

My pretty princess!

Mummy's naughty baby!

My handsome prince!

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Pictures

2011-01-30T06:32:00.001+08:00

She started her army crawl since 1 or 2 months ago?

She is all ready for a proper crawling!
Very proud of her :)

Her another sleeping pattern!
Lol!
She really can roll and crawl when she is asleep!
Often push me down from the bed lor.

My cousin, Biqi came to visit again!
She put Meimei in this position!
Haha!

My fav book that keep me entertain when I'm bored while waiting for Kyrene to finish school :)

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unlucky rabbit year?

2011-01-30T06:05:00.002+08:00

i forgot to rant!
i'm suppose to pump at 2am but i overslept till now.
arghhh....
im down with mastitis like AGAIN??????/
dunno how many times le lah!
lost count liao.
seriously, i need to see a doctor soon.
i did a research, most of the people only kena mastitis for the 2nd time and its all clear.
mine hor, dunno is 5th or 6th times liao lah.
nobody as SUAY as me liao lor.

anyway, read about my RABBIT YEAR.
born in RABBIT year and during RABBIT year is damn suay!
everything won't goes smooth for rabbit.
sob sob.
i can see it coming !
seems like many people see me 不爽 hor?
or is it me being sensitive?
aiya, i wanna go 打小人 liao!

irritating

2011-01-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

很讨厌假假的人咯！
Obviously, you know what i'm selling, you know what my online store is, yet you still message me to ask me sell your products.
when i rejected you nicely, cos i myself also have my own products to sell.
you still can 假假 ask me what products i am selling.
really damn disgusted till i wanna puke pleaseeeee!
you went to my facebook and add my customers one by one to sell your products lor.
now you're asking me this kind of 废话？
so 欠扁 right?
total bitch!
felt disgusted to have you in my facebook.
am gonna delete you in my FB now now now!

seriously hor, if having me in your facebook are such an eyesore, please delete me lor.
otherwise, i will continue post my facebook status as what i like.
later your eyes turn blind hor, is not my problem! =)

Ang pao packet

2011-01-27T05:13:00.001+08:00

This year collection is great!!!
There's Dunhill, bvlgari, Tangs, chow tai fook, citibank, the hour glass and many more!
Thanks to Hubby for adding my ang pao collection.
Hubby say when he visit all these branded outlets, LV, chanel all this outlet never give out ang pao one, if not sure add in my collection lor!!!

Anyway, the most unique one is this customize ang pao!!!

Yup yup, customize hubby's surname, 许，in traditional wording!
Not bad hor?

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Lioele - power slim patch

2011-01-27T02:05:00.002+08:00

Lioele power slim patch that I bought recently. :)

I got big flabby arms so bought it hoping to lose a few inch!

Actually it's not really a good idea to use this for slimming arms, if you have very low budget like me!
cos for me, i everything also want to SAVE up lah.
1 box comes with 5pack and you have 2 arms right?
so endup, you already use up to 4packs within 2 days, den got to buy again to put on till it lose to your desire inch.
so quite expensive for me lor :(

But for a more effective way, i wrap it up with extra 保鲜纸!

the next morning, i measure again, i lose 0.5inch.
good enough lah, better than nothing right?
at least, didn't waste the money mah.
but now, i left 3packs nia lor.
and i only lose 0.5 inch, still got long way to go.
FML !
i want MONEY pleasssseeeee !
Anyway, think im gonna use the left over 3packs on my tummy instead.
i looked like i'm pregnant #4 baby lor.
totally FML!
ARGHHH!

=)

2011-01-26T18:32:00.002+08:00

wa lao, my temper is getting really bad.
not enough sleep, plenty of works to do, not enough money, dont know how to educate the kids and so on.
the worries is never ending.
anyway, i was quite bad tempered la so small little things can make me blow up.

i was just merely asking if k1 chinese tution $60 is expensive or not.
i'm fine that people keep telling me that i'm stressing kyrene and she's too young to take it.
i definitely appreciate all comments because its for kyrene's good.
because i know i can't always want things to goes on my way and never care about others feeling.
so every comments given to me, definitely helped me to think more wisely.
but putting a way on 'you don't know how to teach meh?', is totally WTF isn't it?
what makes her thinks that i don't know how to teach?
anyway, i finally blow up and say her on my facebook la!
i always blog down but never go and say her back.
like machiam, 有气往自己肚里吞!
damn ARGH lor.
now tell me, which mother don't want to give their kids the best stuffs?
i may have more than 1 children, but that doesn't mean i don't love my elder child, you know?
i often tell hubby, at least kyrene used to bring us joy for the past 2yrs ++ before we had bravier.
How can we forget the joy she gave us and now keep scolding her over small little things?
this is human mistake!!
always forget on how people who had help you before, but only bear grunges on them who are not willing to help you again.
tsktsk.

anyway, i think i'm quite bitchy sometimes also lah.
when people who dash in the lift before i could come out from the lift, i straight away scold one lor!
sometimes i thinking, why must i stoop myself so low as them.
like 泼妇骂街, so unglam.
lol
think if i good temper, i will be more cute la.
LOL!

i simply love comments that say i'm a good mummy.
LOL!
cos at least i know, someone can see that i'm trying my best to be a good mummy.
有谁不喜欢听到好话？=)

updates

2011-01-25T08:57:00.003+08:00

i feel so PEK CEK that i'm a plus size lor.
plus size still nevermind hor, low budget some more.
lagi worst!!!
CNY clothings can forget about it la!
Sian.
*who ask me have 3 kids lor*
LOL!
dulan la!
i just rant that i have no money to shop for myself and this person hor say 'Who ask you want to have 3 kids lor!'
WTF totally.
i rant also need your approval meh?
siao char bo!
think some people 心理不平衡 one lor.
jealous that my life is great with my 3 adorable kids around.
LOL!

anyway, my meimei is already 5months 1week old.
i'm still pumping milk regularly for her!
so proud of myself that i went through so far!
hehehe...
& my poor kids, down with throat infection.
at first , it was didi down with high fever + throat infection, then pass to meimei and jiejie.
poor didi, even though no more fever le, cough gets better le, he still no appetitate in eating.
no more forever hungry boy liao.
:(
& i think, he's in terrible 2.
cry over small little things, and keep crying all the time.
sian.
somtimes damn dulan with him. ~_~
but he's still such a cutie pie!
he can say quite a number of words already.
never stop making us laugh with his action and words!!!

kyrene in horrible 5, i guess?
extremely stubborn kind!
asked her not to do something, she will shout at me 'WHY?'.
then will say, 'i dont care you!'.
but she still insists to do it on her way.
then kena beat by me, still refuse to say sorry.
she is those kind, 令可杀不可辱!
damn sian.

& hor, im damn dulan with him.
knowing our hse got guan yin, cannot eat beef!
he still bring beef burger home.
really want to get scolding.
tmd.
im not angry with he bringing beef burger home.
angry that you simply knows that CANT EAT at home, why u can't put this in your brain?
it means, u feel that its not important that's why you don't even want to put 'CANNOT EAT BEEF' this words into your brain isn't it?
very idiotic.
anyway, its over.
hope he will remember it la!
i never like to disrepect to anyone's god.
so i expect everyone around me, respect to my god too.
actually, i believe in everyone's god.
so just dont be disrepect to any god la!

Kraze burger

2011-01-24T00:30:00.001+08:00

Hubby go marina bay sands very often for his work purpose.
He called and tell me there is new burger shop which just opened and he bought me their chicken burger!

This is their signature, garlic wedges!

I'm not a fan of garlic so I dont like this!

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Pictures

2011-01-22T08:34:00.001+08:00

My chubby chubby is not overweight. :(

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No mood!

2011-01-18T02:54:00.001+08:00

Don't have the time.
Or infact don't have the mood to blog despite I have so much things which I want to rant about!!!
Will do so when im using my lappie!

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side track

2011-01-16T06:22:00.002+08:00

seriously, i think we couldn't communicate anymore.
and why is that so?
i don't think i've changed, as my temper is still the same since day 1.
i think i did my best.
so will leave it as it is, if there's no improvement at all.
just sick and tired with all those nonsenses.

side track ;
didi is down with throat infection i think?
he's running high fever.
poor boy, doesnt want to eat anything for 2 days already.
:(

My little princess

2011-01-13T00:58:00.001+08:00

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Huge milk tea by wangkok

2011-01-12T15:18:00.001+08:00

I knows that wangkok char chan teng (hong kong restaurant) will give a extremely big milk tea for free during birthday month!
But don't know applicable for small kids anot.
Lol.
Just wanna give it a try so we head down to bugis junction for dinner.
Luckily I brought didi health booklet to prove that his birthday is this month.

Really can drink until vomit!!!!
LOL!!!

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Busy busy!

2011-01-11T18:43:00.001+08:00

Busy packing the parcels.
Still have a few haven't do!

Argh....
I like to collect orders, collect money but don't like to pack parcels.
Lol.

Meimei now is on 5days diaper trial on a japan brand diaper which maybe coming to sg.
I'm heng la, one mummy asked me if I'm interested to do survey den I say ok lor.
Seriously got free diapers to wear and got money to take at the end of the trial, why not?
But just that quite troublesome that I have to write the timing and have to weight the diapers after each use.
Zzz...

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Didi 2nd birthday!

2011-01-11T00:53:00.001+08:00

At home :)

Last min bought the cake!

He loves the cake so much that he ate 2 big slice!!!

Happy Kyrene loves cake too!

Meimei still sleeping!

Once again, happy 2nd birthday my 小王子!

Happy birthday my baby boy!

2011-01-10T19:43:00.003+08:00

Its didi birthday today!
So sad that seems no one interested to celebrate his birthday.
(i'm referring to his family side)
And hubby actually work till so late.
(he just came back at 7.30pm)
Though he dont really understand but i still feel bad that not able to give him a party.
:(
Kyrene have been asking why we didnt buy a cake for him and why no party and so on.
Then didi start to say, "i want buy cake!"
LOL!
Gonna buy him a cake later.
Am pumping milk now, once done will faster go out!
Been raining for the whole day.
Spoilt my plan that i want to bring him to peekaboo at leisure park.
Arghhh...

Lastly, Happy birthday Bravier boy!
Thanks for bringing us joy and laughter for these 2 years.
I know there will be more joy and laughter for many many years.
Baby boy, mummy love you many many oh!

Bad mommy?

2011-01-10T01:00:00.001+08:00

Kyrene have been excited over the ballet dancing.
Hubby went to make an enquiry yesterday at NEX.
Kyrene thought Hubby enroll her in already and was damn excited over it.
But the fact was we don't have the spare cash to put her in for any enrichment courses.
Yet I dunno how to tell her that we haven't sign her up for ballet yet.
I know she will be damn disappointed. :(

Today she suddenly commented that she is going for ballet dancing this Friday.
We was like "huh"?
Her mouth kept repeating non stop.
No choice, I let her know we didn't sign up the course yet.
Quarrel with him because I really hate to give my kids false hope!
Sigh!

I felt really bad when I couldn't give them my best.
Feel like a bad mommy.
:(

Been thinking to go back to work force so can have money to put her in some enrichment classes.

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nebulizer

2011-01-07T17:21:00.004+08:00

oh, i didn't mention that we bought a nebulizer at a good price.
Just happen to walk in guardian to look for citric acid to clean the sterilizer.
Saw that they have the same nebulizer that i asked Lovie to help me buy.
But i think keep on no stock over Lovie's side of pharmacy.
Luckily, she didnt bought it lah.
Cos guardian having 20% off and end up this nebulizer only cost $99!!!

Lovie was actually getting for me at the price of $112 or something.
Forgotten liao.
So i think i really bought it at a good price!!!

Anyway, on the next day, brought kyrene back to see PD.
End up, PD say she needs to put on nebulizer.
So heng la, we bought it earlier.
Hehe...

skin care

2011-01-07T11:45:00.002+08:00

I have been reading ard some bloggers regarding their daily skin care routine.
Yup, I finally wake up my stupid idea and gonna do something to improve my horrible face!!!
tsktsk!
Am searching for cheap yet good skincare products that would suits me.
Seems so hard to find especially i have no idea about my skin.
But i think most importantly is having sufficient sleep and drink plenty of fluid.
I can drink plenty of fluid but about the sleep part hor, which i till now still can't have it la.
always insufficient sleep cos of the kids. :(
Sian!

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Kyrene in K1

2011-01-05T00:04:00.001+08:00

Time flies, Kyrene in k1 today!
Hubby brought her there since he need to go work too.
He say Kyrene behaves well and din cry or feel uneasy.
New classmate, new teachers and new class environment.
So proud of her!

Meimei was cranky for the whole night since 12+am till morning 7+am.
Some more I wanna wake up to see Kyrene go off to school but end up too sleepy already and went to sleep.
Lol.
So Hubby send Kyrene go school.

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5th wedding anniversary

2011-01-03T03:32:00.001+08:00

Am having bad headaches now.
Due to insufficient sleep. :(
Nearly forgotten that it's our 5th anniversary till Hubby reminds me.
Lol!
No plans I guess.
Hard to plan la, cos I am those type that must bring my kids along everywhere I go one.
Hahaha!
When others doesn't like to get tie because of the kids.
While me simply love clinging on to my kids.
Haha!

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A normal day!

2011-01-02T17:19:00.001+08:00

Meimei looks chubby and overweight right?
But she is considering average and slightly underweight for her height. :(
Am finding ways to boost her weight, since she doesn't really likes milk.

In spectacles shop with her papa.
Damn pissed off that day la.
Knowing that everyone is waiting for him to return back the car yet he dilly dally choosing his spectacle despite I already give a black face.
Damn fuck up!

Another updates!

2011-01-02T16:59:00.002+08:00

Do housework and no supper everyday.
Really can lose weight one!!!
I lose 3kg in less than a month.
Trust me!
Lol !
So happy!

I'm gonna be persistence so i can lose more weight.
My target is to lose 30kg.
WTF, i know lol
I want to be underweight so when i gain abit and abit, im still considering average weight mah.
LOL!
So if 1 month lose 3kg, 10months i may lose 30kg.
加油加油！
oops, nope!
its 减油减油！
LOL!

Oh ya, let me say a joke.
Hubby squeezing my flabby stomach and say '小小弟弟'.
I feel like giving him a slap on his 乌鸦嘴!
Cannot afford still want to have 4th one?
Siao.
Even can afford, i also won't consider having 4th one.
Its not only about money.
Whether you have the patience to teach or not.
Yes, you can use money to find them a good nanny.
You can use money to give them go into a good school or enrichment classes.
But do you have the patience to educate them to be a good person when they grow up?
There's always this saying, 生容易，教很难啊！
Especially already have 3 kids, teaching is already so difficult, having the 4th one, do u think u will have the time?
Sure will neglect one of them at least.
Which i do not want that to happen.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2011-01-01T16:02:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!!
Spent my new year at home watching tv. lol

All my 3 kids are down with running nose and cough.
:(

brought kyrene and meimei go see doc at first as didi was well.
but gonna bring didi go see doc too on monday!
meimei weight 6.7kg only.
and she drinks 90ml or less every 3-4hrs.
how to grow fatter when she drink so less? :(
she seems to like formula more than my breastmilk.
cos she drinks more ml when fed her formula.
feel like giving up liao lah!
think nobody as suay as me liao lor.
people breastfeed, i also breastfeed.
but i so many problems come out in this 4months.
arghhh!

Anyway, its finally a brand new year!!!
i wanna go do facial, do up my hair and many more!!!
More moolahs pls!!!
Thinking to go back to work.
Or infact, im thinking to start up my own business.
Again, no money no talk lor!

Unlucky year 2010

2010-12-28T04:14:00.001+08:00

I'm down with mastitis again.
Running 38.2 degree on Christmas!
How 'lucky' I am?
Totally no appetite and boobs damn painful until I cannot stand it and went to eat painkiller.
But I'm glad that my Christmas wasn't wasted!
I spent my Christmas with jacq and Joanna family.

Finally went to see doctor this afternoon.
Was given 5 days antibiotic if still not recovering, have to go back again to get referral letter to go see specialist and do scanning den may need to do surgery.
When I heard that, jitao damn devasted la.
Never gone through op before and because of breastfeeding issue and I have to go through this. :(
At the same time asked the doctor abt my feet with a black dot which I felt pain for quite sometime that I could hardly walk properly.
Doctor confirm it's warts and needed a day surgery to remove it.
Damn!
Even more upset and worried.
双重打击！
Thinking, is it coming to my end of world already?
Is it my time coming up already that u needed to suffer all this first before I go?
I maybe thinking too much but seriously I till now still worried abt sudden death may fall upon me.
Sigh.

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Getting impatient

2010-12-25T04:37:00.001+08:00

I'm losing my patience with them already.
Sigh. :(

快疯了

2010-12-23T11:09:00.002+08:00

those who thinks kyrene is hyperactive.
you may not seen didi before.
he's worst than kyrene!!!
how's active is your child?
name it!
tells me about it!
im sure didi done it before too.
Arghhh....
am going insane soon!

I seriously need those people to shut their mouth up and stop telling me that i deserve it!
Stop telling me that i brought this up to myself.
This is my life, my fate and i choose them myself.
I had NEVER regret it!
No matter how difficult it is, i still manage it through isn't it?
When i thought its impossible, i still survive isn't it?
I never even complain to anyone about it except hubby!
So don't have to tell me that i deserve it or i brought this to myself and whatever shit.
At least, i did my very best to take care of them, rather than i throw them to other caregiver.

Now i finally know how important my hubby is.
LOL!
I just can't wait for the clock to strike 6pm so hubby can finish work and faster come home.
I seriously need his help so i could take a breathe and get away from kyrene and didi for a while.
OMG!
Both of them just keep fighting every few mins?
Didi simply love to disturb kyrene!
But kyrene finds that didi is such a nuisances and kept pushing him away.
There goes to the start of fighting.
Arghhh!!!!

No matter how clean freak i am.
When comes to no helper, i simply heck it!
But i still try to clean the house as much as i can.
But didi really never give me a break.
When i tidy up, he will purposely make a mess again.
Show me his evil grin and run away.
I used to dislike those kids who create troubles to their parents.
I always thank god that kyrene don't behave like this.
But now, i have to take my words back.
Because didi is really one of them!
And i can't dislike him, isnt it?
Arghhhh!
我真的快疯了！

2010-12-20T11:27:00.001+08:00

My joy, my kids!

2010-12-20T10:51:00.002+08:00

im blogging, finally!!!
hubby went to work and FIL came over to bring kyrene and didi to his house.
i seriously don't understand why they want to do it this way.
if u want to help me out, why can't u look after them at my place?

to me, if i want to give birth them, i want to look after them on my own.
i never liked to throw my kids to others.

yesterday, FIL bring kyrene over to their house.
SIL bring kyrene out to bedok point and shop with their another niece.
Then, sil ask kyrene and her cousins to walk home from bedok point shopping mall.
WTF pls.
Denise only 12yrs old, kyrene only 4.
The journey of walking home is 20mins?
More over, they are still KIDS!
Is it that difficult to bring them home?
Its her responsibility to bring them there and home isn't it?
Denise didnt bring her phone out, makes me even more worried.
They have to walk over bedok interchange in order to go home.
So many traffic lights, wondering if denise will look after kyrene or not.
Kept praying that kyrene will be safe till she reach home.
When hubby called up his sister, he didnt even tell me about their conversation.
Until he hang up den i start to ask, then he tell me.
Pissed off!
If not, i sure grab the phone and scold his sister for being so irresponsible!
Until they reached my inlaw's place and call us back den i felt so relieve.
No matter how naughty, how spoilt she is.
She's still my child.
The one i pregnant for 39weeks++ and give birth to her.

seriously hor, i have no say in his family.
despite i say that i don't want kyrene and didi go their house.
despite that i've said i can look after 3 of them myself.
they never listen one leh.
didnt we also manage to look after the 3 of them?
just that when meimei wants to sleep, i have to put didi inside the playpen and let him cry, while i tug meimei to sleep.
other than that, i also can manage them well what.
reason why i dont want them to look after, because they insists on their way of 'teaching' my kids.
That's fine.
But they like to throw my kids to SIL or their maid and they went to open their shop.
Please la hor.
You offer to look after my kids, you should STAY and look after them.
If throw to others, i rather look after myself.
At least, i can see my kids.
Totally WRONG when they just leave my kids to others and they just went off like that.
Piss me off big time.
If i really cannot tahan hor, i will just bring my kids out early in the morning before they come.
Which i dont want to do that.
Is like i have a home yet i can't go back, u know!
Arghhh...

yesterday we bring the kids out to changi airport for dinner.
i enjoyed the moments that we bring the 3 kids out on our own without any help.
though its tiring but i really do enjoy!

I missed outside food la.
Sick of tingkat dinner.
Zzz...

Still feeling sad

2010-12-10T13:42:00.001+08:00

Though Didi never cry for maid today.
But he have been looking ard searching for her.
Can't help but feeling upset with him.
Feel that he very poor boy.
Like being separated with his mother.
Though I'm sad that Didi is closer to maid instead of me.
But I can understand that feeling becos both of us are those 重感情 type of person. :(
I hope Didi can get over it soon and I will try my best to get close to him!
Luckily Hubby is here if not I sure dunno wat to do.
Cos other than her, the next person Didi close with is Hubby Liao.

This is how I survive when I need to do housework. Thanks to playhouse Disney!

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Her THREE bundle of joy in Year 2010

Updated

18/2/2012

16/2/2012

My 3 disaster !

My three bundle

Happy birthday Bravier boy!

十二月初十五

Kyrene's 2nd operation!

CLEAR Shampoo Review

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Updates!

God bless!

Random

Meimei koh is amazing!

no time!

Meimei koh's 1st birthday bash

Hardsell *shake head*

Updates after 2months

Birthday cake - DONE!

My dearest Great Grandmother At age 103

half done for meimei birthday~

unhappy.

Party venue!

Myself :)

Hada Labo Retinol Lotion

Updates!

upset

my complicated 2011

Photos!

Recents up and down

updates!

sticky / work force

rants!

love-hate feeling

job hunting

Random

About life

Changed.

Meimei bursting cheeks

Unhappy

Lazy !

Recover soon, Kyrene!

poor kyrene!

mind my own business!

unlucky year!

My 3 precious!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYRENE!

Workforce

Please pray for her speedy recovery

My poor baby girl

Sorry baby girl :(

同人不同命

formspring.me

My 3 darlings are sick!

2nd hand

toys

Clever Meimei

my life!

Clever Meimei

My darlings!

The icing room!

My life is completed

me-time =)

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Pictures

11th feb

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quick updates

初一

Cny eve!

Pictures

unlucky rabbit year?

irritating

Ang pao packet

Lioele - power slim patch

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updates

Kraze burger

Pictures

Hardsell shake head